• Grace Ehlers

i'm a wife at 20

On January 9th, 2021, I officially became a wife at only twenty years old.

I still go to bed every night thinking, “OH MY GOSH!! I am sleeping next to MY husband!!” I will happily cuddle up next to my husband, praying and thanking God for choosing me to be his wife.

I had only one “swoosh” of anxiety about being married, and it happened on our wedding night.

We were staying at a super nice hotel for the night. We were planning on getting up at 4:30am to get to the airport for our honeymoon in Cancun. When it was time for us to go to bed, my mind was just going and going with thoughts. I couldn’t stop repeating everything that had happened throughout the day in my head. For two hours, my mind refused to calm down.

When I was thinking about the day, my mind would repeat over and over, “What now?!?! What now??!!” I had spent the last four months planning like crazy, and just like that, the big day came and went. My mind couldn’t come to terms with the fact that all the work / planning was over, and now, it was time for me to start my new life.

I was so overwhelmed with excitement that it turned into a rush of anxiety, and I was left staring at the wall deep in thought. Harrison ended up waking up to talk with me until I was able to fall asleep.

Two weeks later, I find myself loving my life more and more with every passing day. I am living the days that I spent my entire life looking forward to. Sometimes, I just want to sit still and take it all in. Throughout my life, I didn’t know if I would make it to this day and feel as happy as I do now.

I clung to God my entire life, and now, I feel myself clinging to Him even harder. I don’t want to take my amazing husband and life for granted. When I look back on my life, I want to confidently say, “I enjoyed every season God gave me.”

I loved dating Harrison. I loved being engaged to Harrison. I love being married to Harrison.

We have our struggles and arguments like any normal couple, but we share a lot of love. When we fall short, our strengths make it easy to push through.

I am so young. I have so much room to grow and learn. I (God willing) have a lot of life to live.

The world would tell me I am giving up my young life to be a submissive wife. The world would tell me I could be anything. The world would tell me there’s so much more to life than being a wife.

Being a wife is what God wants me to be (no doubt). I am not giving up anything. In fact, I am probably happier than the average person with the important “job” I have been given. And who says I can’t be whatever I want now? I am still a passionate writer, and even more so, now that I am married with more free time. However, being a wife comes first. Writing is great, but no matter what it brings me, it will never be placed above my husband.

My life won’t stop just because I got married. In fact, it has only just begun. I have never felt this alive.

Harrison deserves and needs a good wife. I deserve and need a good husband. We have our God-given rolls, and we will work through marriage as a team. Not everyday will be an easy one, but there will be so many good days to erase the harder ones.

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