• Grace Ehlers

had to take a chill pill

I’m writing this on my phone notes instead of sitting on a comfy seat or at my desk on my computer.

Why you might ask? Because I’m in my hot car, where I’ve been for the past 2 hours. I haven’t moved a single inch the entire time.

I had been driving for around 3 1/2 hours when traffic stopped. I was on my way home from TN listening to music and enjoying the pretty route home. I was making a list in my head of all the things I needed to get done for the wedding before I travel back. I was busy distracting my mind from the fact that it would be almost 2 weeks before I would get to see my fiancé again.

A few miles away from the terrible traffic, I saw a dark grey cloud, and thought it was weirdly placed. My first thought was storm cloud. I’m in a mountainy area, and my mind just assumed the “best”. As I got closer, I could see the trail of the cloud heading towards the ground. That’s when traffic ceased.

After listening to different people, who had gotten out of their car, I came to find out there had been a gas tanker explosion. Four people were involved and all seemed to be okay.

There’s been emergency vehicles going back and forth (as well as a helicopter). It’s almost 4 o’clock and rumor has it we won’t start moving until 6:30. I’ve picked up all this info from hearing the people talking.

I have no data. I’m traveling alone. My car is off. Besides the occasional talking from other people, the only noise are the trees blowing in the wind. And to be completely honest, I have to pee really bad, but I don’t want to walk across the street and go in the woods. Everyone in their cars would know exactly what I was going to do, and me being me, I can’t handle that lol.

It’s frustrating for sure. I want to be home. I left at 10:30 this morning. I’m only 30 minutes away from home. I am THAT close to home.

It’s times like these where there is nothing to do but reflect. No social media. No one to talk to besides the occasional text from my fiancé while he’s at work or my mom and older sister checking in. This situation is forcing me to take a step back. I could get mad, or I could think of all the things I’m thankful for.

So, what am I thankful for right in this moment?

  • I’m thankful everyone involved in the explosion is okay.

  • I’m thankful for all the paramedics, police officers, and firefighters helping out.

  • I’m thankful I packed a book.

  • I’m thankful it’s fall, and there’s a cool breeze that can blow into my car.

  • I’m thankful I’m in a pretty area where I am surrounded by mountains and pretty leaves.

  • I’m thankful I have a busy mind that allows me to brainstorm, write, and plan ahead.

  • I’m thankful for the fact that when this is all over, I’ll be even more thankful to be home after a long trip.

  • I’m thankful that my fiancé has been able to text me a little during one of his busier work days.

  • I’m thankful that something that could be frustrating has turned into a chance to count my blessings and allow my mind to just think.

Sometimes, we are forced to take a chill pill, and it may be just the medicine you need (if you give it a chance).

(Update : It’s 4:15, and we are starting to move a tiny bit!!!)

Thanks for reading my sporadic thoughts that I wrote out in the middle of a traffic jam. You are all loved and appreciated. Feel free to reach out to ask questions about this blog or any other blog or to just talk. I love hearing from you guys!


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